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that's actually how i feel towards other people. i can't believe they're doing this to me. well one person.. whatever. shallow reason for him. *ehem* well anyway..
person # 1:
+OVERRATED. that's the one word that i can remember about her. i can't even believe that she criticized GG. damnit. first of all, i don't wanna curse anyone or anything. because, i realized that it's not good. but then, you make me do it. number one is, you're one of my closest friends. you even became my bestfriend. it just hurts to know that you'll say that in front of everybody. [lol, good thing none of us from GG was there.] i meaan it hurts that you always back stab everyone. and then i'll be a part of it. the next day, i talk to you. you talk to me like nothing has happend. bullshit. for all i know, you're already like.. "don't let them play. their band is soooooooo overrated." [lol, redundant. so na nga, overrated pa. ampu.] walalang. it hurts lang talaga.. nakakainis na kelangang mong isama yung buong band sa pang kaekekan mo.. i start to think tuloy, "are you really my friend..?"
person # 2:
+PEDOPHILE. that's the word.. connected, not to him.. but the person he's taunting about. okay. i like this person ypunger than me. so like.. pedophile. whatever. but then this guy, a close friend of mine, starts to talk in a rude way.. he knows that i'm serious. i think he's considering this as a joke or whatever shit that is. then he starts to talk like he considers my reaction as a joke. "oh, musta na yung isang pinapatulan mo?" PINAPATULAN, AMPU. hindi ko siya pinatulan. EVER. we don't even talk. damnit. last time i saw him, last last week pa. before their exams. i hope you know na na-gagu talaga ko nun. pa sorry sorry kapa.. if i know.. hindi ka lang kasi kinakausap ni.......... *censored* whatever. haha. you suck. one more thing is.. ang sakit masabihan ng childish. ng immature. tell me kung anung ginawa kong immature. cge, alam ko naman you know who you are na eh. ilabas mo rin sakin galit mo. ganyan pala eh..
person # 3:
+BITTER + BITTER + BITTER. tsss. i hope this won't affect our friendship.. i mean it's just some effing guy. PEDOPHILE is pretty much connected to you. okay, it all started when i suddenly realized that.. i'm actually becoming serious for the fact that i like *ehem*. i even remember this friend of ours was there when that happend. i didn't wanna move to another room coz' he was there. so i was asking this person and pur friend if it's okay for them to move.. then this person said.. "okay lang. ikaw lanmg naman kasi may crush sakanya dito eh." so i was like, okay. but then i was bitter. bitter for the fact that, i won't get to see him for a very "long" time. so then.. blah blah.. next few days.. exam week came. this person, started to act that as if she wants to help me with him. coz whenever were changing tutor rooms, she would say.. "eh ate, pwede dito nalang si.. para ganito.." [haha. censored people.] so i WAS happy. coz' i thought she was helping me. then when we were already starting bio, sobrang i was looking for him. then, she started changing her hairstyle in to a.. "mysterious" one. so she was looking for him na.. eh napatanong ako bigla.. "crush mo rin ba?" she was like.. "oo. dati pa. nauna nga ako sayo eh. hindi mo lang alam." [ABA PUTA. ako pa pala yung "mali" ngayon? sorry ah. kasi naman nung crush ko na siya, you weren;t acting that way. so malamang, kala ko.. every effort you were doing, somehow for me yun. eh sobrang.. nakakainis pa is.. may times na.. parang nagpapapansin na. [sorry. don't wanna be rude. pero that's what i realized.] if ever man ganun, naiinis ako for the fact na.. you didn't tell me. sana i'm not acting this way. i don't wanna ruin our friendship over a guy who's actually younger, damnit. but you're making me do it. sobrang na-bitter talaga ako nun. nabadtrip ako. i wanted to kick the whole building of our tutor place but sadly, i couldn't. tapos.. when you go near me, you'll say na.. "text him na kasi. tamo ako, katext ko na siya." ..and shit. puta. hindi ka nga nagpaalam nung kinuha mo number niya eh.. [shit.. this sorry, sobrang na bibitch nako dito.] tapos.. when i feel na.. i'm losing hope.. yun ibabato mo sakin? AMPPPPPU. i don't want you acting na.. "den, galit ka ba?" [with the pa-tweetums effect.] because of mas kilala mo na siya sakin. i'm waiting na he'll be introduced by a friend to me in person, before we text or something.. pero if ever you know who you are [kasi sobrang halata.], i'm really sorry. co'z i had to let this thing out. naasar lang talaga ko. i hope na things won't change between our friendship. pero sana lang talaga, nahalata mo yung na feel ko nung time na yun kasi super obvious. tsss.
person # 4:
PHILOPHOBIA. it's connected to you. dang. i know.. i have this fear. i just don't want this to happen again. kasi, i feel so numb na.. knowing na baka mangyari ulit sakin yun. even though i "experienced" it for the first time. sobrang naapektuhan ako dun. i just hope that you'll keep your promise and be there. i really wanna spend that time with you. you know how much i miss you. and i hope that you won't ditch me. [damnit. sakit nun if you do. lol.] i wanna hear you on the radio. i wanna "talk" to you badly. tsssss. too bad, sa fair pa. RAR. but anyway.. i hope na you won't be the same guys i met. haha.. whatever. *rolling eyes* LOL.
~practice for songfest awhile ago. tippy was not bitter. she was MAD. i hope you're okay now. coz' i don't want you to be sad. i'm here lang okay? i'm just one call away. :)
soiree with 2g/j : LSGH : tomorrow. haaaaay.. hope na there'll be alot of people going to green meadows. i need a break. i'm soooo tired of studying, thinking about crap too much. i'm soo excited for next week. songfest (26th), mc-xavier interaction(27th), AHS sophnight(29th). i wanna meet chinese hommies na. i wanna finish the songfect practices na. it's making my vocal chords stretch too much. i wanna perform with GG, in a very pleasing way. i hope our songs will be okay for the sophnight.
oh yeah, glad that my mom's trip from iloilo was fun daw. glad that she went there and got back here without any dangerous crap. glad that i have new beaded stuff. glad that i poured my bitterness here. LOL. anyway.. i'll update this again.~
<3 ciao.
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